As I think of you

As I think of you,
My knees go weak ,
My heart races and
There's a moist feeling between my thighs.
As I close my eyes ,
I see us entangled together,
As our naked bodies press against each other
And we kiss n fondle with each other,
Fulfilling our sinful desire ,
Clinging on to each other,
Our bodies ..unite n become one,
But as I open my eyes,
We become strangers
And the passion between us,
Has not yet been explored.

Well this thought came to me at 3 in the morning..
thinking of ahmmm.......somebody..

I Can't Get Through To Him

I can't get through to him
It hurts so much inside me
That the distance between us is increasing
day by day
I can't see whats on his mind
Everything i say to him gets him angry
There's nothing to say between us anymore
that will make a difference
He has woken up from a deep sleep
And realised that the society around him
is not goin to change
So he will have to change according to it

I cant get through to him
He's gone to far
I can't catch up with him anymore
Things were so fine between us
Till he decided he didn't require me anymore
His words which used to bring a smile on my face
now just makes me wanna runaway n cry

I can't get through to him anymore
It hurts so much inside
He has closed all doors for me to him
I don't have a shoulder to cry on
Nor a nest to lay my happiness in
anymore in him
He brought me out of darkness
But left me alone to face reality
which is just eating me
I can't get through to him ....

YES i know these poems are depressing well it was such a time in my life
but now everything is fine between me n my friend
our friendship has blossomed n nurtured into a true friendship one probably we didn't have before

2. He Loves Me He Loves Me Not

He loves me he loves me not
He loves her yes he does
He loves me he loves me not
So whats now !!!

He was not mine to keep
So why do i weep
He has said yes
But his mind is still in a mess

He loves me he loves me not
He loves her yes he does
He loves me he loves me not
So whats now!!!

He doesn't know but i know
He cannot love another
For his heart is tied to hers
And he won't let go

He loves me he loves me not
He loves her yes he does
He loves me he loves me not
So whats now!!!

My Heart Has Been Accepted

these poems was written not so long ago
these are poems about someone who i wanted to be mine but it didn't work out as he loved another :
My Heart Has Been Accepted
My heart has been accepted
For once and i'm already scared of loosing him
I don't know what's these feelings are
For when i didn't have him i worried
And now that i have him i'm scared of loosing him
Why am i left now questioning everything he says
Why is he questioning everything i say
Now there's no turning back because i got to make this work
For me and for him
There were times i questioned why i am jealous when he's not mine
And now i question if he is mine should i be supportive

My heart has been accepted
For once and now i'm scared of loosing him
Now its a new beginning and it is an end
An end to my past
Becuase its now that only my present matters
I'm soooooo happy i'm so worried
I'm so lost
I'm his and he's mine
And there so much more to give to share to love
I have no regrets
My heart has been accepted
For once and i'm already scared of loosing him

"Love" what an illusion

well been in love ...been out of it..
in love again n out of it again..
n through the entire experience....
was so happy...
then the one i thought i loved with no regrets..
i regretted completely...
knowing him..
love would make me smile..i would do crazy things ..
dress fancy for them..
change my life upside down.. just to be by their side..
real crazy..
i would cry.. if we faught..i would cry..if love made me happy..
go totally insane..
..n then love would go so cold n then all would change..
n then no more insane..
..."love what an illusion it creates"

man i've got a sweet cousin n this is why

i was like chatting with him around 2 A.M in the morning
n man he just made me jump out of this shell i've been sitting in for so long ..
man thank u josh..
i was like real low about how life is taken this track where nothings going well
n he was like 'work harder , make more sacrifices, stop crying ,stop worrying,just keep working harder ..nothings impossble.."
man he went on for an hour trying to boost my confidence...
n man at the end of it i was like "woh man i am all prepared to face this scary, selfish demanding world.."
"n man who ever wanna mess with me or demand the best from me... man u will get more than u have asked for.."
thanks a million josh
love u...